May 2012
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I see it all
And I don’t bat an eye.
Almost home
This has been a whirlwind week. My grandpa’a death was unexpected, but his funeral service was such a fantastic celebration of his life. He was an incredible man, and an inspiration to everyone in our family. Both of my job prospects fell through, and I still have to deal with my scholarship stuff, but I’m still in an oddly good mood. It was so great seeing my cousins, aunts, and...
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Riding in the car with my crying, invalid sister.
This is miserable.
The Heart is a lonely hunter with only one desire! To find some lasting comfort...
– Carson McCullers (via quote-book)
So here's what's going on
My grandpa died two days ago. It was unexpected, although he had been sick for a while. I don’t really know how much is appropriate to share, but it was a violent death and then my aunt found his body. No one really knows how to talk about it. I wasn’t especially close to him, so it hasn’t really had any dramatic emotional effect on me, but it has definitely made me think more...
Life keeps throwing me curve balls
And I can’t even play baseball.
At least this makes three. Bad things come in three’s, right? Or do they just keep coming?
I need to get out of bed
And get out of my head. Seriously way too much for me to deal with right now, and I just want to ignore it all, but that won’t solve anything.
Time to get to work. Fix everything I’ve fucked up. Pick up the pieces.
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Stress in my stomach and love in my heart
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Sonder →
dictionaryofobscuresorrows:
n. the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness—an epic story that continues invisibly around you…
This thought crosses my mind almost daily, and it kind of upsets me for some reason.
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I tried to go mow the lawn
And then a giant metal rod fell on my foot…
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It is impossible to watch a movie with my brother
He laughs in all the wrong places, he makes judgmental huffs any time someone says even the slightest of curse words, constant commentary and questions as the movie is playing, and God forbid someone should even insinuate a sexual action, then obviously we have to fast-forward through half the movie.
Could I please just relax and enjoy an artistically mature film without having my moral integrity...
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The world spins. We stumble on. It is enough.
– Let The Great World Spin, Colum McCann
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Busy, busy, busy
This weekend: thrift stores, carnival, party, sleepover, art market, food, movies, friend reunions.
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In my own time
Don’t push, don’t prod
My ways seem odd
But they are mine
I’m doing fine
In my own time
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I got a second interview for the job!
Now I’m nervous. This one’s serious. Business talk, situational questions. Do I bring in a resume?
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myladymother:
it’s not that I work better under pressure it’s that I am physically incapable of taking care of my responsibilities unless the pressure to do so is supreme
FUUUUUCCCKKKKKKK
This is the end of my life.